We’ve updated our Terms of Use to reflect our new entity name and address. You can review the changes here.
We’ve updated our Terms of Use. You can review the changes here.

Flashback

by Hacienda Gardeners

/
  • Streaming + Download

    Includes high-quality download in MP3, FLAC and more. Paying supporters also get unlimited streaming via the free Bandcamp app.
    Purchasable with gift card

      name your price

     

1.
Flashback 04:04
I almost lost myself Fear and regret I couldn't save myself I was so upset I was bittersweet to forget All the wasted years I was depressed Couldn't get out of bed Cried so many tears All the time I spent thinking of her And now she broke my heart Felt sorry for myself I needed hope and a fresh start Why can't I just learn to walk away from everything? I wanna forget about her Don't want a flashback to occur And why can't I just throw it all away? I don't want to play this game All this hurt and all this pain Feeling so afraid Every single day I almost threw in the towel I was living in hell All alone in the danger zone Down in the hole Thought it was over for me Stuck in misery I wasn't free I couldn't see any signs My destiny I couldn't take much more I had to walk out the door Overwhelmed Everyday was the same Was so lame Felt worthless So hopeless Under so much stress Needed help No one knew what I was going through Felt so blue So much fear inside my mind Life was bad all the time Why can't I just learn to walk away from everything? I wanna forget about her Don't want a flashback to occur And why can't I just throw it all away? I don't want to play this game All this hurt and all this pain Feeling so afraid Every single day
2.
Falling 02:52
Can't keep playing these games All the hatred and shame I deal with everyday It's been hurting my brain I've been playing charades I wish I could get away It's a shame you had to betray I won't listen to a word you say I'm sorry I've been Hurting Falling Had a flashback the other day Lately I've been so afraid And to my dismay I hate feeling this way Wish that things could change And now it starts to fade I'm over here in the bay Away from everything I'm sorry I've been Hurting Falling I'm sorry I've been Hurting Falling
3.
Dreamer 02:13
Falling behind Living my life Broken heart Shattered mind Can't go on Living like this I've gotta change My life is a mess I don't want to be a statistic I don't want to be realistic I didn't want to leave her but she was a clinger I became a drinker The heartbreak lingered They say I'm a dreamer An overachiever And I'm a believer while they bow down to caesar Why do they have to be so sadistic, narcissistic, and so pessimistic?
4.
Too Late 01:24
I wish that I could walk away from everything just for one day I need to get away from this place It's driving me insane I can't escape Couldn't recognize my face when I looked in the mirror Felt like a disgrace They tell me that it's too late I won't be replaced and I won't lose the race
5.
Depression 02:43
Depression was my obsession I was trapped in hell Couldn't go anywhere Wanted to disappear for so many years They said there was no cure I was unaware I have a confession I've got this aggression Sometimes I dwell on all the times that I failed And it makes me sad Couldn't understand I've got all these demands and no time to make plans for myself
6.
Driving down the street Passing all these people They all want to see me fall down the steeple They're all watching me hoping that I'll fail So they can point at me and mock and laugh out loud All the hatred and lies They want to see me die It's an eye for an eye They'll never change their minds They are victimized and terrorized They need to open their eyes because they're all so blind Walking around town with my head down They insult me Say I'll never be anything I'm wasting time that I'll never see the limelight That I'm an average guy That there's no use in trying They'll see me crying every day and night Damaged and injured Several things to fight They'll never do what's right They're all bark and no bite Wish they could take a flight and get out of my sight
7.
Black Hole 02:31
Climbing out of this black hole There's gotta be something more to life I won't give up the fight Running now I shut the door They can't enter and tell me I'm wrong and stop writing songs They treat life like it's a game They tell me that I'm so lame They're trying to use my life They wanna hold me down I don't know why They say that I should just give up That I am nothing They say that I can't sing and that I'll never be anything at all

credits

released August 29, 2022

Nate Pizano - vocals, guitar, bass, synths, programming, lyrics, artwork

Composed, Arranged, and Produced by Nate Pizano

license

all rights reserved

tags

about

Hacienda Gardeners Los Angeles, California

Hacienda Gardeners is an American indie rock band from Los Angeles, California

contact / help

Contact Hacienda Gardeners

Streaming and
Download help

Report this album or account

If you like Hacienda Gardeners, you may also like: