1. |
Peak State
02:58
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I can’t believe everyone turned their backs on me
All the people that I trusted couldn’t accept
Who I've become and who I wanna be
They’re all wannabes
It’s such a tragedy
They’ve got such bad energy
They need to look in the mirror and get therapy
And fix all the things that are holding them back from living their lives
They spent so much time gossiping it’s not right
All they wanna do is fight
and turn off the light
so they're out of sight
They love the darkness
and they want to see me fail
They’re lost in confusion
and living in hell
and they believe their delusions
and think they're so swell
deep down inside
they know they’re off the rails
I’m trying to reach that peak state but its getting hard cause of all the people
Trying to drag me down
Right back down to the ground
I’m trying to get to the top but its kinda hard cause of all the haters pulling me down
and now its time for another round
They want me to quit so they can say
“See I told you so. He was nothing”
I wont stop fighting back
For years I’ve been under attack
I’m taking no flack
They hid their disguise so carefully
So i couldn't see what was happening
Behind my back while they slandered me
Trying to make me look bad
Misery loves company
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2. |
The Summit
02:23
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When I looked in the mirror
I used to feel so much fear
Hated myself
I didn’t wanna be here
Everyone said I’d be a failure
Trying to steal all of my power
All of the years I spent feeling so low
Wasting time and crying tears of sorrow
No hope for tomorrow and feeling sad everyday
No self esteem
I had nothing to say
And I feel like I can't step down
Everyone keeps telling me to turn around
And give up the fight
I’ve been up all night
Trying to reach the top
I’m not afraid of heights
I’ve almost reached the summit
They all want me to fall down and just quit
So they keep talking about me
Behind my back where I can’t see so I can’t succeed
I’m almost at the summit
I can hear all my enemies running
They’ve all gossiped and mentioned my name
Put me to shame and caused me so much distain
My reputation is what they want to destroy
They don’t care what they do to my life
They just want me to throw in the towel
To give up so they keep going around and lying on me.
They get off on being a fake friend
They camouflage and try to blend in
With the rest of society
They’ve got no empathy
For anyone
They’re so selfish
They are fake friends and narcissists
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3. |
Higher Than The Clouds
04:28
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I’m higher than the clouds and I’m looking down
at everything that surrounds me
and all of the people climbing up and all of those that wanted to stop
they couldnt make it to the top
they wanted to break me down a lot
they tried everything that they could
thank God I understood
what they were doing to me
I didn’t let it stop me
and now I’m higher than the sun
up in the clouds
They’ve all been shunned
they’re hating on other people now
trying their hardest to drag them down
it’s unfortunante how they choose to live
I’ve given all ive got to give.
when I was climbing up I witnessed
other people that chose to give in
they quit and threw in the towel
some others kept on going and didn’t allow
the enemy to stop them
they ignored all of their comments
and kept on marching forth
they pressed on because they wanted more
I cant believe the atrocities
all the things they said to me
told me i’d never be anything
that I was worthless and that I was wasting
all my time and wasting my life
that I would end up failing
and regretting it all
they wanted to watch me fall
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4. |
Out In The Snow
02:13
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Right now I am alone
In the dark
It’s so cold
I am out in snow
and I wanna know
If anyone cares at all
I can’t stand tall
I am on the ground
Curled up in a ball
In the fetal position
Beat into submission
I was on a mission
But now I'm down
Couldn’t make it that far
I was stuck in the tar
and I’m climbing out
of the devil’s car
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5. |
Captivity
03:07
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Staring at the road in front of me
I can’t see the end
It’s my destiny
I’ll keep moving forward and moving ahead
I wont look back
I wont turn my head
It’s been 8 long years since I was ok
I threw it away and I watched it fade
To black and I couldn’t wait
To get away cause I could not stay.
Stuck in that place
I was so lost
such a disgrace
I paid the cost
The end was near but now I’m free
from that captivity
Those four walls
Trapping me
Stuck inside
I could not see
I was so tired
of living there
With so much fear
crying so many tears
I got on my skateboard and skated down the street
Out of that vicinity
where I felt so numb from all the pain
and all the shame surrounding me
i hopped in my car and drove real far
away from the bay and to my dismay
I had to go back for a short while
I could not smile
I was in exile
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6. |
First Base
01:58
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I didn’t lose hope
I didn’t pout or mope
With all my problems
I did my best to cope
and make the best
of a bad situation
This new sensation
‘Aint feelin so dope
and im on my way
to first base
running as fast as I can
thought I lost the race
I almost lost myself
I was living in hell
but now it’s ok
I wont be afraid
I was stuck in last
for most of my life
I didn't stop
I shined my light
on the darkness surrounding me
my enemy didn’t want me to be free
now I’m out about walking around
I’m gonna shout and laugh out loud
and they talk about me
but I cant hear
that’s ok
cause they’re living in fear
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7. |
Worlds Apart
02:38
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We’re worlds apart
and they’re on a different level than me
they couldn’t start
their journey they've got no empathy
they’re all sharks
and it’s sad they cannot see
they didn't make it far
they’re on a different frequency
and now they’re missing in action
they couldn’t make it up the hill
they lost traction
didn’t have good morals instilled
they hate on everyone else
they are so lost in the dark
they chose to ring the bell
they quit cause it was too hard
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Hacienda Gardeners San Jose, California
Hacienda Gardeners is an American experimental rock band from San Jose, California
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