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Adversity University
02:16
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Going to college.
Feeling like a disgrace.
My lack of knowledge almost got me erased.
Sitting in class just wasting away.
Drawing cartoons. I thought I threw it away.
All these fake friends around me spreading their hate.
Riding on the bus and always running late.
Adversity University in California.
It was nice to know ya.
I should've went to Oklahoma.
Stayed in my hometown only to be a clown.
Walking down the halls with my head down.
Riding my skateboard just to get around.
Writing lyrics 'cause I couldn't shout out loud.
Sitting in the classroom hearing the sound.
Of the professor trying to wear their crowns.
All of the chaos and all of the crowds
All the stereotypes.
They weigh me down like a shroud.
Got an F on the essay.
The teacher said my writing was too messy.
Got rejected from the fraternity.
They thought there was something wrong with me.
She rejected me when I asked her out.
She said I don't know what I'm talking about.
All her friends pointed and laughed.
Said I was ugly and not good enough.
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2. |
Dreadful Day
02:57
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It was a dreadful day in San Jose.
At the MLK library.
A homeless man decided it was the end.
Fell from the 6th floor on January 11th.
2016. I had left the scene.
Graduated already.
He felt like there was no hope.
Didn't want to live in this world anymore.
Overlooked by everyone.
Treated like trash and got made fun of.
All these rich kids didn't care about him.
They treated him with deference while they got their education.
Everyone was so traumatized.
That incident changed all of their lives.
A hopeless homeless man fell from the sky
Splattered on the ground.
He wanted to die.
He could've been anyone of us.
He was sick of life.
He had had enough.
No one knows what went through his mind.
No one could see the devil inside.
Over near where I used to go through CDs.
I wasn't on the scene so I didn't see
The blood he spilt that day.
He chose to throw it all away.
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3. |
Late Night Fight
02:14
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Skating down the street and riding light rail.
Felt like I was stuck inside a jail cell.
At midnight I witnessed a fight
Someone almost lost their life
Now everyday I'm hypervigilant
Even though sometimes it doesn't make sense.
Each and every time I turn off the light
Running through the darkness late at night
Skating down the street and riding light rail.
Felt like I was stuck inside a jail cell.
At midnight I witnessed a fight
Someone almost lost their life
Now everyday I'm hypervigilant
Even though sometimes it doesn't make sense.
Each and every time I turn off the light
Running through the darkness late at night
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4. |
Gen Why?
01:55
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I'm part of Generation Why
I asked myself this question all of the time
What was my purpose?
And why was I here?
Had to endure all their anger.
Throwing their toxic spears my way
So afraid for so many days
Stuck in a haze.
Didn't wanna be a slave
To my emotions and to all of my pain
Lost in the maze.
Why am I even alive?
Feels like I pushed it all aside.
All of the adversity in my life
I didn't want to deal with all of the strife
All the regrets haunt me late at night
Although I try to fight I know I wasn't right
Let myself down again and again
Rejected my own emotions
All the girls I wanted to befriend
Told myself that I wasn't worth it
Walked around with my head down
Felt like a clown.
I didn't wanna stick around.
Why did this have to happen to me?
I was a good person.
I didn't want to be.
So unclean.
Feeling so ugly.
So unfree.
Living in misery.
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5. |
Social Anxiety
02:02
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It was a blessing in disguise.
Tried so hard to hide.
Social anxiety ruled my life.
Body dysmorphia.
All of the strife.
Avoided mirrors and running from the light.
So much fear and trying to reach great heights
Working retail and living in hell
Laughed at and mocked.
They told me to ring the bell.
To just give up and throw in the towel.
Didn't want me to succeed.
They wanted me to fail.
And fall into the gutter into the cell.
It makes them mad that I'm not on bail.
It makes them upset that I'm not off the rails.
They wanted to see me fall off the cliff
Didn't want to see me rise like a Pheonix.
Now I'm on the river sailing ahead.
It makes them sad that I'm not on meds.
They can't stand to see me succeed.
It irritates them that I've been set free.
They want me to be depressed and unhappy
The lengths that they'll go to to destroy me.
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6. |
Junkie
01:54
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Wasting away in addiction
Even though I was already a Christian
Backsliding.
I turned into a junkie.
Running from the truth of what happened to me.
Trying to numb all of the pain.
Smoking and drinking.
It almost drove me insane.
Thank God that he saved me before I died.
I could've overdosed.
Luckily I'm alive.
Luckily I'm alive.
Luckily I'm alive.
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7. |
Skin Deep
02:03
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My day was going fine until I realized
That my acne was ruining my life
Couldn't get a girlfriend to save my life
Hated myself and was too shy
Comparing myself to all of my peers
Didn't speak up and felt so much fear
Wanted my skin to be clear
Avoiding mirrors and cried so many tears
Watched all of the women walk away from me.
They said I was ugly.
Got rejected from the fraternity.
They didn't want anything to do with me
Isolated and hated.
No friends.
I felt so degraded.
Used to wear my sunglasses to hide my eyes.
Wore my headphones so I didn't have to socialize
With anyone.
My life wasn't fun.
Laughed at and shunned.
I was on the run.
I used to sit in the corner and write lyrics.
Wished I could rant but no one wanted to hear it
I'm glad I graduated.
Even though my relationship was falling apart.
She was the first girlfriend I had.
We broke up and didn't want to restart.
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